So I had this dream last night. And it’s pretty much a common nightmare of any girl who’s almost three years into a relationship.

I was standing, waiting in my kitchen for MI boy to come home from God knows where. When he walks in, he tosses his phone onto the counter top and he proceeds to sit on the counter next to our fridge and kind of collapse up there staring at the wall – which is a weird place for him to sit in the first place. When I asked where he was, he just said he was out and busy. Suddenly his phone beeps indicating he has a text message. After another minute of cloudy conversation that I can’t remember at this time, his phone beeps again and it’s another text message. I question who is texting him and he replies, “I don’t know, just ignore it.” By now I’m suspicious. So I pick up his phone and look at the message. (In real life, he may have tried to stop me. But in my dream he just sat there in his slump looking hopeless for some reason.) Suddenly his regular cell phone turns into one of those huge ‘sidekick’ phones and the text appears really large on the screen:

“I Love you too! I can’t wait for us to be together finally!”

Well needless to say in my dream I was in a state of ‘Shock and Awe’. I starting asking MI boy a million questions: “Who is she?”, “How long has this been going on” “Why didn’t you tell me?” He says – it’s been going on since I was at ‘such and such’ company working with Kristen. So at this point I’m just pissed, but I don’t want to let him go easily I guess. So while stirring something in a pot on the stove for dinner I tell him, “Fine, if you’re going to cheat on me, I’m going to cheat on you.”  - (Who in their right mind would still be making dinner for their cheating boyfriend at this point...Me apparently…and I don’t cook!) He says – “Really? You’re not mad? I’m moving out you know.” At this time another text message come in from the other woman and it says:

“Did you tell her yet? Did you tell her!?”

I ended it with, “Fine, go be with your crazy stalker girlfriend!”

What is this dream telling me? Am I having doubts about our relationship? Are we growing apart? We just bought a condo together! I trust him. But I always have my suspicions cause I’m naturally a bit jealous when it comes to boyfriends – especially more in the past. I mean he can go out with his friends without me – no problem. But just how much can you trust men to behave?